My Life In Increments

Part 1
Nothing can make me walk away from this issue, I grow through throwing myself into the fire. 
Part 2
I love myself now so I can say no and walk away, no more fires.
Part 3
Nothing to walk away from, its not real

I woke up yesterday morning saying over and over in my mind "I AM THE VOID!"
Memories returned from the teachings of Ramtha who had said, "The void is one vast nothing materially, yet all things potentially." Do I now finally understand what he meant?

My thoughts about life have been changing rapidly this past month or so. I have been contemplating an idea that I read in Jed McKennas book,which suggests that in order to be enlightened, one must return to "No Self". Now I don't profess to know what that means,but with the help of my Holy Spirit I believe I am going to find out, and the first hint,is this idea that I am the void. One vast nothing materially yet all things potentially. 

NO SELF! Think about that. It brings up both fear and excitement. The fear being the letting go of self and all it's beliefs, opinions, titles etc. Letting go of what I think God is, and certainly giving no credence at all to the idea of an ego, who I could use before as the reason for problems in my life. 

It's letting go of being the teacher, the healer, the artist and the idea that I need to fix myself or someone else. It's accepting totally that everything in this illusionary world is perfect just the way it is. No more choices to make, my ideas of good and bad gone down the drain. Hey, I don't have to be the "good" girl anymore, what a relief!

All joking aside these new contemplations have flipped my old way of thinking upside down, and I am realizing that my whole life has been a farce. Not that I regret any part of it. It was what it was because it was, and that's perfect for me. I couldn't have done it any different, just like now, I am destined to move forward with these new ideas because they are pulling me, and deep down inside of me I have this excitement that promises something new.

Stay tuned, I don't know when I will be back but it won't be too long.