The Answer is in the Question!

Two nights have passed since my last awareness,that I am still making this body real, and that I think I can make pain. These nights were not what I expected.

The day after my awareness I had no more pain in my body. It seemed like a confirmation or a gift of my new realization, one I thought would last. However, the last two nights I have been awake with pains again down the right side of my body, leaving me questioning and asking why?

Is it because my belief in the body and this world runs so deep, that I can only have glimpses of what it is like to be free of such limited ideas? Is my present lack of peace a confirmation of my lack of faith. Faith that this body and this world isn't real, despite the fact that everything that I see and feel opposes that idea?

Can I now let go of the frustration, the impatience and the embarrassment of telling my friends that the pain has returned? Can I admit to myself how much my ego was involved, when I thought I had made a huge leap in my evolution, and can I forgive it? Can I accept that there are still layers of limited beliefs to remove,and because I still believe in time, they take time?

These are the questions I am asking myself today. This is what this day is for, and one moment of peace is all I need to receive the answers. In fact as I look at the questions I can see the answers are built right into them and it's a big yes to all. In fact I believe the answer to every question I have ever asked is contained in the question.

The I that is spirit knows all of the answers, has always know them and always will. I believe we all know the truth about who we are and why we are here, and that's why we already have the answers to every question we could ever ask. I just have to be still a moment and listen to that still small voice inside of me that I call The Holy Spirit. It is the one with all of the answers and it is a part of me. The part that knows everything.

Yet another truly empowering thought that leaves me totally fulfilled and not relying on any person, place,thing,time or event in the world to awaken me from this dream. The spirit within me does know it all. Now I need to practice patience and to have faith, that one day I will live the truth of what I know, and in the meantime forgive myself for making this illusionary world real.