Making Pain Real!

Last night I tripped and hurt myself. The pain kept waking me up in the night. I had a dream that I was in pain, but I had work to do that would inevitably make the pain worse. In my dream I chose to not participate in the work,which was a different choice than I would have made in my past.

Back to the story.
I was in a restaurant with friends. I tripped on a stick that had been placed on the floor to hold the door open by one of the staff who was cleaning. The stick wasn't there when I entered the washroom. She had followed me in. I tripped and threw the right side of my body off kilter, causing pain in my toes, knees, hip, arm, shoulder, neck and head.

I was angry. Angry at her for being negligent,angry at myself for creating the situation. Angry at myself for not mentioning it to her boss because I didn't want to get her in trouble. But most of all angry because I was no longer in peace and joy. My thoughts were revengeful and I didn't like how it made me feel.

Before I lay down to sleep, I asked Holy spirit for clarity on the situation. My dream was the key. Acceptance was the first step. Despite the fact that this is an illusion, some part of me still thinks it is real. So, when I hurt myself, I take care of it in the best way I know, then I receive the clarity.

I asked who was testing me, who was trying to knock me off my peace? The answer was me. I still think that I can make pain and suffering so I do. Truth is, pain and suffering are not real, they are illusions. The only truth is,that I am peace joy and love,and I didn't make them, God did. It's as simple as that.

It's me that tests me with one illusion after another. I heard other hidden beliefs arise such as I can make sickness, I can make food have an adverse affect on my body. I was being asked to forgive these thoughts because they no longer served me.

Once again, I am reminded that there is nothing to do in order to wake up, other than become aware of my hidden beliefs and tell the truth about them. In this way, my seeming pain became my gift and I saw the perfection of it.