Patience is natural to those who Trust!

Over the years, I have convinced myself that I don't have enough patience. I want everything yesterday. So it is, that at this time in my life, when I am observing pain come and go in my body I am questioning what true patience is.

Here is the story:
The last few days I have been experiencing acid reflux, in a body that according to my knowingness, isn't real. I have had this in my past, changing my diet several times in an effort to heal it. Yesterday I decided to get serious,and I sat down to engage the Holy Spirit in an attempt to conquer it once and for all.

I began by asking all of the right questions such as, why now? Why when I am loving more and judging less. I couldn't hear the answer, I was so wrapped up in the fear.

Now I was doubled over in pain closing my eyes and waiting. A moment later the phone rang. It was my partner Chris with some wonderful news to share with me. In the past, I have often wondered while in the midst of some deep discomfort, what I would feel if somebody suddenly told me I had won the lottery. Well this time I hadn't won the lottery but the news he shared with me filled me with joy. Within fifteen minutes, what I thought might happen, actually occurred. The pain was gone, after three days of suffering,gone.

So I contemplated what happened here. What message was Holy Spirit sharing with me now? It was clear to me, that in that moment of hearing the happy news I forgot about the pain. It was no longer important. In that one moment I had changed my mind from one of pain to joy, that's all it took. The pain didn't return because it was the perfect moment for me to give it up. I say the perfect moment because I know it was Holy Spirits gift, the answer to my questions. Questions such as why now? This was why, because I was ready to hear, and I wanted more than anything to conquer my impatience.

"Those who are certain of the outcome, can afford to wait"

This is a statement from A Course In Miracles under the heading of patience. I already knew the concept that everything happens at the right time and place for everyone concerned. I just didn't fully believe it until now.

My experience has taught me to trust that everything has a purpose, and change happens at the perfect time. No more trying to make it happen faster which always creates more stress and doubt. My concept of patience has changed. It is now a letting go rather than a doing. I can already feel the peace.